nv post fer 4 days .
nothin tu post at all .
watched finish absolute boyf .
niceeee lehhx .
last esp touchin eh ~
alah ! i wan watch agn . haas
alright , nth esle tu post ?

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i am in a damn fcuked mood manzxc !
i dun even noe wad i am thinkin .
i dun even understand myself , do i ?
i beg no ._.
i am just a failure , failure in everytin .
everytin have changed , or am i the one who changed ?
i am just transparent ?
maybe i shouldn't appear ?
ton and ton of problems/qns , yet unsolved .
just tat silly thinkin of mine , thinkin tat they would understand me .
but i am wrong , totally wrong .
i dun even understand myself , yet i expect them tu understand me .
how selfish am i ?!
they have their own problem and here i am givin them attitude .
maybe i made them dislike me har ?
i am tired , real tired but couldn't be aslp .
makin myself tired is onli the way to be so call trouble free ?
i wan someone to be by my side all the time , i am feelin scare .
maybe i am just too childish to have such a thinkin .
but who cares ?
everything just change in one night .
should i ask , boyf / fwenz more impt ?
andand just cuz of __ , a __ tat NOT even fit tu be my fwenz , i gaveup hopes .
flashin bck everytin , one word REGRET !
i regret listenin to __ !
juz cuz they asked me to listen to __ , endin turn out this way .
and w/o any thot , i listen to __ and did wad was told .
how stupid / silly i am eh ?
i shouldn't have type all those things .
i shouldn't have send you .
i shouldn't have that thot at all !
that one final lastlastlast chance , i din even cherish at all .
for that , i am sorry .
smile taken away since then .
i'm awaiting , knowing that is impossible .

pretending to be strong , yet scare .